|
[11 Dec 2007|03:31am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Townes Van Zandt. |
] |
Is it hard to think about the fact that everything you do has already been done before?
|
|
| Snowfall in November. |
[21 Nov 2007|03:06am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Jose Gonzalez. |
] |
The panels of my house breathe in and out due to the extreme change in temperature. The first snow came today. For some reason, with each change of season, I always become extremely optimistic. It's something about the air. It feels so new, and so clean. I thought about how people believe in reincarnation, until one reaches complete enlightenment, and then the soul is set free. I wonder what I was before now. And if Karma is real, then I was probably a good person in my last life.
I feel good about myself until the discussion of our relationship comes up. How we both know that we don't really care about the other person, but that being alone right now doesn't seem like an option. I apologize for being so bitter, I never used to be this way. And you explain that you have become bitter too, because of who came before me. We are using eachother. It upsets me to think that I had something real, and now I am settling for something, so that for a few hours a day, I don't feel as empty as I feel the rest of the time.
Later, I am asked why I loved him, to explain it in one sentence, and all that comes out of my mouth is, "Because he made me feel like I was needed," and the way that I am looked at after it comes out makes me think it was the wrong answer.
|
|
| i don't know what is going on with me. |
[10 Nov 2007|10:38pm] |
| [ |
music |
| |
The Mountain Goats. |
] |
I had a dream that I was back in school.
I can't find an apartment.
I had a dream someone told me Dan has a girlfriend.
Apparently, he does.
I had a dream that I was nine again.
I am late.
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
kateeefdaklh's journal